It is strange, I have never met him, he doesnt know who i am, we never talked. But since I "love" him I became a better version of myself and even my fear of dogs went away. I really feared dogs from birth. They were my biggest "enemies". I always thought I will forever fear them. But now, when i started to "fall in love", this fear is becoming more and more "small". It will vanish soon, I feel. I had fallen in love 20 times, really. But I feel its different, the feelings are different. I felt he will make a big difference in my life.. and this is really happening. He was my first crush at age 6 or 7. And now I again "fell in love" When I had crushes I always wanted more and more pictures of them and always blushed when I saw them anywhere. But now, I have only 2 pictures of him and I dont want more. And when I see him I dont technically blush, instead I feel warm in my heart, and feel peaceful when thinking about him. Like "home". Plus, I didnt find him attractive, I mean, not my type. But somehow I fell for him and now I find him attractive? :/ And I dont even watch videos of him like fangirls do.. I dont get it O_O When I saw him at age 6, I felt happy when I first saw him.. I think. I cant really recall. Only A picture of him and a feeling. A really positive feeling. Sadly, he is 31 years old, and I am 16. :s And he even lives in a different continent.